She Said It Out Loud

I've been pondering over the visit to the doctors and how i can go about helping myself before i have to find professionals to do the job for me =/ ...most of the stuff thrown at me i was expecting and i actually thought the doctor was pretty leniant towards me regards some health issues.. she even complimented me at one point *gasps... but nothing prepared me for the bold, out loud and proud statement she made about my increasing fears of the outdoor: agoraphobia ...eeeeek!! there, see, i said it.. another label to go with my Social Phobia...eurgh!! ..accepting the problem is there is the first step and whilst my Out Count is now semi-retired, i think i need to keep at least some check out what i am doing, when and where i am going and planning ahead- but not so much that i have time to alter plans. June hasn't been a terrible month but i've skipped Opportunity Group once (thro ill health altho i'm sure we'd have coped) and i did cancel a doctors appointment- i've yet to post a letter i needed to send last week because i have no money in the house and i haven't managed to drag my sorry ass to the bank .. thats the same reason the milkman is overdue too... i did go see my dad on Fathers Day altho i got a lift there and back... but i did walk to and from the doctors on Tuesday ...its not a lot, but its a start ...